Desperately wanting something is not very likely going to make it happen. Your sense of want and your desperation serve mainly to perpetuate an attitude of lack and limitation.
Rather than putting your energy into wanting something, put your energy into creating it. Instead of following a desperate kind of ambition, live with appreciation and a confident kind of acceptance. Know that no matter what happens, appreciate where you are and what you have and know that there is always a way for you to move forward. The biggest obstacle standing in the way of anything is often your idea that it cannot be.
Think and act as if what you seek is already taking shape. Open yourself to the amazing abundance in which you’re already immersed, and let go of all thoughts of lack and limitation.
Move beyond that painful, ineffective, desperate kind of ambition. Step forward with gratitude, confidence and assurance to bring about the reality of whatever you seek.